Sometimes I get so sad when I feel my body changing as the days go by. I'm in my fifties now, my body is changing, the visits to the doctor are getting more and more often, my doctor is recommending more parts of my body to be tested "just to make sure" she says.
Three weeks ago I went for a biopsy at Kaiser, that didn't go well...Kaiser likes to give this tasks to inexperience nurses or doctor's assistants, this person hurt me so much and didn't get the test done, she blamed me for not finishing the test. I was sweating, nauseating, about to faint and the pain was unbearable, this person didn't even care.
I felt compel to report this to the hospital, so, two days later I called the hospital and put a formal complain, I didn't do it for me, but mainly for this nurse, if she has chosen this field as a career, she needs to have compassion for patients, we (patients) are already stress for all the things that are going on with our health, we don't need to add more stress and physical pain to that.
The hospital scheduled me for another biopsy but this time with a real doctor. Today's experience was the opposite of the previous one. The doctor took the time to go through the details and talked to me like I was her friend just to make me relax a little, she knew that I didn't want to be there and that I was nervous.
This time it was the normal pain, but less horrible.
I thank God for blessing me with good health since I was born, even though I was born into a very poor family, my health was always good. I think that that's the reason why I'm so miserable when the doctors tell me that I need to have all these tests done. I just have to get used to the idea that is just going to get worse before it gets better, our bodies are like cars, everything starts falling apart after five years, the difference for humans is after fifty.
Thank you Lord for my life, thank you for showing me that even though my natural body is failing, You keep my spirit young, active and full of eternal life.
Thank You for loving me so much that when I ask You to be with me while I'm going through these tests, You always respond and You let me know that You are there with me and that everything is going to be ok, in Jesus mighty name, Amen!
